911 memory

8:46 am and 9:03 . in reflection. remembering how all of America “united” in pride of the country’s response after the shock and pain. The flags waving in love of a hurting country from hate. Enough I say. Peace in my world,as I see it, starts with us. In what we can control. You and I can claim it now. Create peace in your community first, spread it around . “wave” peace around like WE all waved the red, white and blue 21 years ago. remember? many of you don’t, many of you have opinions on a day, that you have only researched, or feed to. ask your parents!.it was an aweful feeling. Took the wind out of us all. Learn why this day is so important. It could happen again, and my hope is that your America you live “today” heals any perceived divisions being amplified through the masses<, case it does. I know, personally, you “see” peace between your friends of different races, backgrounds, etc. You see it through your music, your art, your teams, your classmates, your friends. The youth will have to stand up here! Take back “one” America.. and teach peace to others. (even your elders) . You have that power. You have that given to you. Wave your peaceful life today! proudly. and teach it.. my thoughts are with all my military buddies that protected, and protect our country, and with all those that lost personal family and friends to a machine and a day of hate symbolized let love and peace today be the largest thing you see.

mama

usually i post this on my Mom’s birthday.. but today I am posting it on the 25th anniversary of her passing.. Why I am posting this to facebook,? well. because this is for sure the greatest loss in my life. I realized that I have been in mourning for 25 years.. and probably will be till the end of my life. Well. been thinking all day.. Well. “frankie!” how about this?. how about you live as happy as you can from here on out, when you think of mom..? This lady was one of the kindest, most fair, fun, caring, loving humans that anyone would want to have been in life with. I am only a chip off her. for sure. This is really not, about me. though, this is about YOU. It is about you, turning your sadness over your lost ones, into a happier life for yourself. It is going to be hard for me to change my sadness to happiness when days like this come along. but in reality. this is the largest wish I am sure she would want for me. As your loved ones would want for you. . So much sadness in the world right now, over things I cannot change. What I can change is MY attitude.. No I am not throwing rainbows, glitter, and sunshine, into the air, and choke out my sadness. I am giving my happiness a chance..to breathe and dance around in MY LIFE., when for the last 25, I have beaten it down, for respect for mom. I am inviting joy in, this year.. giving it coffee, and I might sing it a tune or two..or dance with it on the couch.. That would make mama happy about now.. yes. I think it would… dance mama dance!.. 

Memory Purgatory

yes Maya yes Maya! you tell it… wow I loved her style. I have been thinking of this lately this year, and voicing it. It is the moments where I believe I connect with another, in the heart, in our conversations that I treasure the most, and really believe I will remember for life. My heart is healing more each day, more than I ever gave it a chance to before. Life is to be lived in the moment, and if your moment is being taken over by a past moment of hurt, or rehashing moments, you can’t change.? Then are you really living your life now. Get out of memory purgatory.. your friends want you in the now. be present. .. I am working on this hard. always working to achieve it.

justice

“certain native american, and other world cultures and ideaologies, believe that saving a man’s life, or doing good deeds in general are a person’s natural function in life, and they require no special reward. Charity in many parts of the world, means “justice”, that all men by nature are born with basic needs met.. Those that have, give, those that need receive. I live by this.. if you don’t.? our paths may never meet, our buisiness tables may not ever join, our planning sessions will never get past the opening mission statement.. This I have learned, and this I live by.. so who wants to get some work done?……… contact me…. my brain is on fire!!!

I am a student still..

breath and just know that you and what is inside of you, is unlike anything else anyone has. thinking of many good souls that I have known that couldn’t find a peace knowing that their lives were an important part of US all., and of all of our experiences together. I miss many great people , that made decisions that left those behind hurting, and questioning “why?” I am reflecting on a lot these days, I am keeping my anxiety down, and I am re-visiting a lot of my own words and thoughts. Listening to what my mind is telling, me, feeling what my heart is feeling inside me, embracing the warmth of where my soul is touching, Wrapped up in it all is “one man”.. I choose always to reflect what i am giving to others, partly for I feel I am undeserving to keep it all for myself, and partly for I think I have never fully realized all the gifts I have been given. Health, happiness, friends, hope, security, fun, love… many of those come and go. Knowing when to gather, and when to harvest all these is an intricate game of balance and bounty. Self-reflection is needed. some are experts at it.. I am still a student. Yet what I do know. I feel the need to teach. I hope some take my advice,and take some of the good in life I have to give. . I don’t want to loose anyone else. … partially in life, or fully. …………love the process of learning, and know that you don’t have to know everything, and it is okay to make mistakes, and it is okay to celebrate successes. I am here if anyone is ever in need… i mean it. 

i’m a…

“I’m a community man. I’m all about my neighbors, and preserving the culture around here, without always feeling I have to change the culture around here. I’m about doing what everyone around here is doing. Which is creating art, music, connections of positive folks. Those providing forward thinking diversions to occupy our days with joy in doing the things that make us happy. Celebrating Orlando as is. As it grows , as it learns in love. Each supporting each other. The only way in my book. If you have other goals than learning together, our paths may not cross. Yet I still cannot wait to see what you create. It makes us whole. It is what community “is”.” 7.31.18 f.messina

creating more means more than I think

I just had an epiphany somewhere in-between, and around listening to

my deceased friend Evan’s poetry, and delving my eyes on to my walls that are packed with local artwork, and my mind went to a very peaceful place. I thought, look at all this beauty I have surrounded myself with. Then I thought of what negativity the world is throwing out right now. Much more than that, the unkindness of other people. The harsh words to each other. I will not allow myself to follow suit. Nope. Thank you to all the creatives that have packed love in my direction, through their artistic endeavors. To form me, to prepare me, to teach me always. There is more to celebrate when self is shared. Love a local and their creations when at all possible! These are your angels sent here to nurture your spirit. We have so many here. It’s not just another container of pretty sounds in your ears, or some paint on a canvas in a frame, or words in a row, in a book. It is someone’s heart digitized, soaked in, pushed across. This is something to be celebrated, not be-rated, not judged, not pushed aside, not filed away, not stacked on a shelf.

All these things, hit me in different levels, and times in my life, when I least expected it. I know your songs are built that way, for you are the only one that could build them that way. All the good heart music is that way, like an onion,. different meal times, yield different meals, at different times, when your body does not even know it is starving. I know your painting is only laid in that frame like that, for you are the only one that saw that light mixed with hues and blues, in that way.

We all, in my world, have raised each other in love, of creativity. We all carry this past in us. All of us are breathing this present today. Memories together, we will cherish in the future.

Writing this I can’t help to think of how much I as a lover of creatives, do what i do, have done what I have done, mostly looking to connect with people. Things are not people. To share thoughts, to create memories, to make visions real. These are not just blocks of things on my walls, these are connected shadows of a man, that makes me whole.

f.messina (c)7.25.21

do it now.

Do it now, you are successful the moment you start., .. you all are fire starters.. It is an honor and privilege to see all the growth…….. I am humbled by words.. grateful to anyone that thinks I started anything.. thank you . but truth is… the foundation we are all building are here for our new eyes watching every move we make. you never know when you will be emulated…. so make it good, make it truthful, make it inspiring, and make it spectacular………………… we have one ride, one trip, one round around this place………… peace and love., (c) photo credit by Edward Seymour II

character traits.

“good character traits that impact your happiness.”

(how ya doing? Plant these into your mind for personal growth)

1. Integrity

2. Honesty

3. Loyalty

4. Respectfulness

5. Responsibility

6. Humility

7. Compassion

8. Fairness

9. Forgiveness

10. Authenticity

11. Courageousness

12. Generosity

13. Perseverance

14. Politeness

15. Kindness

16. Lovingness

17. Optimism

18. Reliability

19. Conscientiousness

20. Self-discipline

out of love

want to be a successful artist? work hard and don’t compare yourself to others, never settle, and become a “product”, keep your ego in check, respect others opinion of your art ( be happy they stopped to see your “life on canvas”). be bold, be true, stay focused, and do not get discouraged, the money will come when the heart is in it. Others will have an experience with your art, when your life experience and your love is expressed through your talent. Always take risks, don’t beat yourself up when you are not able to paint, because of life’s demands or financial woes. you are a gift to the world, and with that title you have a duty to keep the world educated of the beauty that is all around us. Most of all to be a successful artist…. know that you are already a success because you are a part of a tribe made out of love.